What's Next For Me
It’s no secret that this last year has been wild for me. So many life changes. Running this blog, A Life En Route, has been the most beautiful experience. Admittedly, a year ago, I thought I would have way more followers and have a book deal by now. And I know the account will grow, but I also know that I have a lot more to do on this blog and for this brand. But deciding not to reenter the traditional workforce after losing my job and opening Tall Hair Creative has been another huge endeavor that takes up a lot of time and energy. Other than not having health insurance and a consistent paycheck, I have no complaints. The hardest part is just figuring out what to do and when.
I was getting into a groove the last month, after the holiday depression wore off, and I was getting stuff done. I knew what to do with my business every day. I started training for a half marathon (my first run a few weeks ago marked my sixth time I worked out in a year, yes I am a mess). And I had some great plans for my blog that I was excited to execute now that I had a clear idea of my daily schedule and my long-term plan.
For two weeks, I was feeling so good. I was on my way to making it. I even saw my therapist for the time in four months, and I had nothing to report. I just missed him because I love him so much and I wanted to tell him how well I was doing. He said the most amazing thing, “You’ve grown.” And he said it with so much love and joy. He explained that he has seen me grow over the last four years, but when I sat there and told him “Yeah, my life is hard but I love it and I’m ok most days, and when I’m not, I know I will be again”, he just couldn’t help but notice how I’ve grown into the woman I’ve always wanted to be.
Well, that didn’t last long. Two days after that therapy appointment, my landlords decided not to renew my month-to-month lease, forcing me to leave May 1st. This is devastating for so many reasons. First, because I am close with both landlords. I have been with them two years before they opened their restaurant, Il Rione. While they did renovations to the front for the restaurant, I rented the apartment in the back, paying their mortgage. I am especially close to one of them. I considered him my best friend for the last few years and even spent Christmas with his family. And there’s a lot that needs to be said about this dynamic and situation, which I will eventually, but not today.
Besides knowing that I couldn’t find another apartment in such a good neighborhood at such a cheap price, I know that I am not very marketable to other landlords without a steady paycheck. So, I knew I couldn’t just go get another apartment in Cleveland.
There’s a lot more I will share about this past week. Including why I can’t live with one of my parents and the physically painful depression that left me in bed for a whole week. But I cannot write about it eloquently right now. I need some time to process. And I really just wanted to get out the news of where I am moving because stuff is moving really fast over here! Don’t worry, you will get all the raw, vulnerable tidbits.
So, where am I going?
I called my cousin, Erin, to fill her in and her first response was “Move here! With me. Now!” I thought for sure she didn’t have room for me, as she has two beautiful kids. She assured me she did. I thought for sure she would not want my dog and cat or her apartment complex would not allow it, but she assured me it was okay. She told me she just wants me to have a safe place to stay and feel loved.
And I cried. I cried hysterically. For so many reasons. But mostly because I felt loved.
It’s official: I will be moving to Denver on May 1st. In Denver, I will be operating my business Tall Hair Creative, running this blog, and possibly taking on another job.
It’s been a crazy two weeks. And I have so much to do to get ready to move May 1. Especially hectic because I will be in Tokyo March 31 – April 12. But I did want to share this with you all now. More to come.
Thank you all for following along my journey. I can’t wait to share my life in Denver with you.